Tuesday, February 11, 2014
I really like this one...
Look, all someone has to do is spend about 5 minutes on the blog, to come to the conclusion that I am about 5 feet from the edge at any single minute in my life. I am really enjoying my life, and I am leaps and bounds beyond the life I was living a few years ago. I didn't choose to be divorced (at least not by overt choice), I didn't kick my wife out of the house, I didn't want our marriage to end. But it did - it took me a couple years to get my mind wrapped around that - being divorced and a part-time Dad - but I have.
And just when you think you're about to enter a new and interesting phase of your life, armed with new found knowledge, and the willingness to hone this new skill - out of the blue, a fucking Unicorn show ups. Now, you've read all about how there are not Unicorns, never were, never will be. You fight the urge to believe your eyes - it can't be, this is a mythical creature - they do not exist.
But with all things, we are intrigued by mysteries - at our core we are explorers, adventurers, always willing take on a challenge. And what if there really is one Unicorn left - you think it could be possible - we keep telling ourselves that "nothing is impossible". So, we cautiously advance, getting closer, examining this beautiful, mythical creature - we are hypnotized by the mere site of them. Oh, but that's the Unicorn's real power - it is their smell, their grace, their touch, their light air of independence mixed with total surrender.
As we fall under the spell of the Unicorn, our logical brains keep telling us - there are no Unicorns, there are only very pretty horses with fake horns. It nags at you. You are smarter than all this. You know the real truth. But it is so difficult not to be sucked in.
OK, I admit it - I'm in the middle of one of these struggles of real vs mythical right now. I know, in my heart of hearts, there are no Unicorns. I have too much evidence in my own life, that they do not exist. Too many times, I have seen or talked to Men that believed they had found one, only to realize it was a fake, a charade, a trick of the mind. And the problem of believing in Unicorns is that you don't deal with reality. This thing in front of you might be a great horse, might be the world's best horse, might be a horse you want to keep around for a very long time. But if you treat it like a Unicorn, it run away, because horses don't like to be treated like Unicorns - and they don't really like the way people act around Unicorns.
So damn. I have to get my mind wrapped around the fact that I'm dealing with a pretty special horse with a fake horn. Kinda sad, I was really hoping she was a Unicorn.
Eyes front Gentlemen. Live, Learn, Lead